Trip Report

  A few days ago, I experienced something that words can only begin to touch. The memories and emotions still linger and are close. I want to keep them close, to remember the bliss and the heart opening, the deep connection to Source. They shimmer very near to the surface, still tender, but radiant, unforgettable.   With the support of psilocybin, I embarked on a journey that cracked open my heart, and then, ultimately healed it. My mother had just died a week before, I felt fragile, worn out from the experience of being with her in the final days of her life and witnessing her take her last breath.   This journey came with an unexpected gift, a renewed love for music. The playlists (thank you, Tove) became more than just the soundtrack, they were lifelines. Carried on a river of silk, the music gently undulated through me, tenderly holding me, guiding me from one intimate immersion to the next.   My body also felt the urge to undulate, I found myself rising from my settee on occasion, swept up in the urge to dance or simply exhale. Blessed moments.   A Sacred Pause: Integration and Inner Listening   Now, in solitude, I am integrating. It is a humbling experience, a quiet time to reflect, to let go of expectations and simply be. It has been a gift.   In this space, I’m writing, thinking, sitting in stillness. Peace is all around me. The forest is thick. The water is ice, silent. The only sound is birdsong, reminding me that I am not alone.   This gift of stillness is perhaps the most underestimated part of psychedelic healing: the pause that follows. It’s here, in this silence, that insights settle and truth begins to take root.     A Shift in Consciousness: Maturity Through Medicine   As I reflect, one word rises up: maturity.   I feel as though I have reached a new level of consciousness, one that might otherwise take a lifetime to approach. How is it that this Earth-born medicine can deliver a transformational journey of a lifetime in one 10-hour session? What medicine allows you to do this?   Psilocybin allows the wisdom of the Earth to move through your body, into your bloodstream, into your brain, becomes the air that you breathe.     Then as breath, back out into the universe, molecules of you, floating on water droplets in the exhalation….   It slows time. It softens the sharp edges of the world, offering a safe place to pose a question, to meet a pain, to see with new eyes. It doesn’t fix the problem for you, but it helps you become better at facing it.   The Tender Truth of Psychedelic Expansion   What I experienced wasn’t simply a high, it was an expansion that stems so fully from your core, your heart, until you are lovingly laid bare. There is a rawness to it. A deep vulnerability. And yet, you are held.   It’s like being turned inside out and realizing you are safe there. A soft pillow for the parts of you that are most defenceless.   The Medicine of Presence   This medicine reminds us of our humanity, not just the bright, joyful parts, but the whole, aching, breathing, luminous truth of being alive. It reminds us that healing is not always loud. Sometimes it whispers. Sometimes it arrives as stillness, as music, as tears, as the sudden realization that you are enough, just as you are.   If you’re called to this path, do not take it lightly, but do not fear it either.   It is, quite simply, a return to the sacred. Intimate, deeply personal, profound.   Visit my site to learn more about psychedelics for healing Join my mailing list to get new posts in your inbox. I am so grateful for you.   https://boodeful.com/contact/

It’s the new moon in Pisces today, March 13, 2021. This new moon energy brings with it the potent opportunity for healing and for setting goals and toning for the weeks and months ahead. This new moon, in particular, is also influenced by Neptune, and Neptune’s influence is BIG. It is the purveyor of imagination, inspiration, vision, faith and belief.   Messages and messengers are important this month, as is communication with others. Friends and allies may come from unexpected places to help and support you and give the beneficial green light or help you get to where you need to go.   Venus is also involved, and Venus is the Goddess of good fortune, and in conjunct with Neptune brings with it a sense of dreams coming true.   I mention these astrological alignments because it feels like my dreams are, indeed, coming true. I am feeling optimistic and hopeful. I feel the magic of this time permeating into my being on every level. Although the energy can have a whimsical nature, I am also feeling a profound sense of being at the right place, at the right time, and that things are unfolding for me as nature and karma intended.   I recently embarked on a further journey to deepen my understanding of working with medicinal plants and have been certified by Being True To You as a Transformational Addiction Recovery and Entheogenic Integration Coach.   SO, in the spirit of healing using sacred plants, I decided today would be an auspicious day for me to do my own journey of transformation and healing. I prepared a tea using 4 grams of mushrooms and sipped it in ceremony, with intention and reverence.   My focus going inwards today was twofold; for healing and to spark creativity. What I have learned from experience is that the insights and gifts from using these sacred plants, are rarely what you expect and yet, almost always, exactly what you need. They have a magical adaptogenic quality of getting to the heart of the very issues you may be feeling need some clarity, sometimes without you even being aware of them going in.   Today, I was blessed to have had a huge dose of both healing and creativity.   Physically, I am in a period of deep detoxification and nutritional infusion. I have given up sugar in all its forms, corn in all its forms, wheat, alcohol and marijuana and all acid-forming foods & substances. I am on a plant-based alkaline diet.  It has only been 10 months and I feel re-born!   I feel as alive as the food I use to nourish my body at a molecular level. The phrase “you are what you eat” came full frontal into my awareness today. How vital it is to realize that my health is directly related to what I do to cultivate and nurture it. What a gift it is to realize that without health, life itself loses its vitality. This message was so clear and simple, and this detoxification path was acknowledged as being the best thing for me right now.   Emotionally, I wept today for the first time in years (yes, years). Tears of sadness flowed for my family & friends who suffer from dis-ease, and I cried for the state of the world and the state of fear that our society is now drenched in.   But mostly the tears that flowed were tears of deep gratitude.   Gratitude for the clarity and awareness that working with plant medicine brings.   Gratitude for the joy that my relationships bring.   Gratitude for the wisdom and lessons from my ancestors who have passed on. In particular, my maternal grandparents and my sister-in-law, Johanne, who died when she was 44.   Their spirits recently made “appearances” in my life, and I was reminded of the lessons they taught me but had not realized until today. Johanne taught me to lead with my heart, her kindness and sheer love of life and her family shone so brightly and continues to influence me. I got the message to let my heart be the larger part of making decisions, not just my mind alone.   My maternal grandparents were kind and generous people. They gave us unconditional love, financial support and opened their home to my Mom, my siblings and I, when my parents divorced. Today they reminded me that their support continues to this day, I need only to tap into it, through my heart, to feel it. I felt intense gratitude for their support.   I also visited my Father and my Stepmom this morning, they are still living, but aged. I felt a strong need to see them and felt that this day would be a good time because of the healing energy which I hoped to impart to them, I was feeling very energized all morning. Another part of this Pisces new moon energy is saying goodbye to the past and letting go, and through this experience with the sacred plants today I was able to finally see much more clearly how I needed to be letting go.   You see I am a nurturer by nature, a Taurus and my desire to help and heal is very foundational to my being, it is why I am drawn to Holistic Health and Functional Medicine.   Today, after spending time with them and witnessing their suffering from chronic health conditions, I was able to finally let go of thinking that I needed to help them.   I realized that they can and will make their own decisions for themselves which will deliver them to their destiny, whatever that may be. I let go of the thoughts in my mind but held tightly to the deep love and cherished memories of the time we’ve spent together. Memories, as I explained to my father this morning, live forever because they are not bound by the physical dimension. I will remember them